feel...

i've been told that i feel life deeply. i took that as a compliment. a high compliment. but some times, i wish i didn't feel things so deeply. ok. i just thought about that. i'd be a really mean person if i didn't feel deeply. i love deeply. i get attached to people. i get attached to things. every thing, every person in my life means some thing to me. i even get attached to ideas and have a hard time of even letting ideas go. all that to say: i am on the fence, and still have not made a decision.

oh yeah. and i did not yet say what i need to say. it's because i am not sure if i need to say it or not. the word "need" plays a big role in the phrase. i have to think through if i "need" to say it, or if i don't "need" to say it.

weird blog.