Any Advice?

It’s difficult for me to write this letter, but I can’t explain why. Thoughts about what I would write have been swirling round ‘n round in my head like a Frappuccino in a blender for days now. Only, my thoughts aren’t coming out as a delicious blended coffee drink- they’re coming out as a big blob of confusion!

I have a lot of good to report. First things first- most people always want to know if there’s a boy in my life. That scores the highest on interest levels, I realize. So, let me just get to it and announce that, no, there are no boys in my life. (Oh, unless you count the married-ies, old-ies, or wouldn’t-touch-with-a-ten-foot-pole- ies.) What can ya do? Now, moving on to more important topics!

I am training for a half marathon (that would be 13.1 miles) which takes place on June 2- only 6 weeks and counting! My long runs are already up to 7 miles- let me tell you, it’s really hard work! I am astounded at God’s creation of the body. I am not a born runner, and actually don’t really even enjoy running. But, each and every run, God gives me this tremendous power to make it to my mark. It’s been an amazing bonding experience with my creator! Just so ya know- you ALL could do this, too. I certainly never thought it possible. It just goes to show- all things truly are possible through Him.

I just finished another writing class at The Loft- the largest literary center in the nation, right downtown! I loved it, and learned a lot. God also allowed me to bond with my classmates, I’m really sad that it’s over. I start working for The Loft tomorrow to pay for the class I took. I will work there once a week through June on my days off from the Bux.

Speaking of Starbucks, things there are good. My dear manager that I’ve had for a year and half resigned and took a non-profit job. It has been extremely sad for me. We were pretty close- he’s the reason I have stayed at my store for this long. My new manager is great, but “losing” Jeff has got me thinking. I made a final decision that I will not become an assistant manager. It’s definitely the logical next step in the company, as I have all the knowledge, experience, and ability to do that job. But, I have prayed about it for months, and I have a total peace that the ASM position is not for me.

My heart has always desired to be in some sort of ministry- full time, as a career. I mean, I went to BBC to get a “ministry degree”, but now that I’m out in the “world” I feel as if this type of position doesn’t exist for single women. My heart longs to serve in this way, but it feels pretty hopeless right now. I feel destined to be stuck at Starbucks for the rest of my life- always scraping by to make a living. Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy- the people I work with are fabulous- it’s just not what my heart desires at all.

So, where does this leave me? Longing, wondering, confused, lost, a little sad, and really wanting help! What’s my next step? Good question, I have no answers! If you have any advice, let me know! I want to do what God wants, it just doesn’t seem like there’s a light at the end of the tunnel of latte’s.

Alright, well- it’s time to clean the 7 miles off my body! Thanks for listening, it really means a lot!