My “Audacious” journey started back in early fall when God
clearly led me to attend one of Beth’s simulcasts with the same title. I’ve
already written about the powerful work God has done in me as a result of Beth’s
message that day, but God’s work in me has boldly continued throughout the
pages of her book.
Beth writes in a way that makes me feel like she is sitting
at Starbucks across the table speaking directly into my heart. She
writes like she knows my deepest struggles, fears, anxieties, worries, and
doubts. This book has been impactful largely because it’s an easy read,
a quick read, and it has a very specific message that rings loud and clear. I was hooked by the third chapter where Beth posed the question, “When the blood in your veins runs hot with holy affection for the living Christ, what do you want to do most?” She also worded it a few sentences down like this, “What are you most compelled by the love of Christ to do? What would it take to do it?” These questions kept me awake at night. They rocked my mind. They stirred my soul. Then Beth pushed me off the cliff of adventure when she ended that chapter with, “Get to it. Nobody but you can do it.” Nobody but me. Nobody but you!
I love that Jesus has made my blood run hot for him in ways
so uniquely different than anyone else. I love that He has done the same thing
for all of you. I love that He loves us with audacity: intrepidly daring, adventurous, bold, marked by originality
and verve.” (pg. 43)
Reading this book fanned the flame in my heart that Jesus
started in recent years. He’s in no rush, but I feel the fire hotter than any
other time in my life. Oh to love Him with audacity. I’ve spent the better part
of my life working for Jesus. Pursuing Him with reading my Bible, praying, attending church services, and serving people has only left me feeling bored, empty, and angry. I’ve always done
these things out of a driving force that I “needed” to do these things.
And as Beth pointed out in chapter eight, “Need Is Not Enough"!!!! She says, "Not one of us will get to the end of this book and voraciously keep seeking an
audacious love for Jesus because it’s what we need to do. When push comes to
shove, our driving force will be desire or this will turn out to be just
another phase we went through for a week or two. Discipline won’t do this for
us. Discipline can make us more Christ like but it cannot make us love Christ more.
We will never love Him just because we need to. We will only love him
audaciously because we WANT to.” (My emphasis added.)
If you’re anything like me, the doubt darts quickly fire themselves
at my heart: “Well there’s no hope for you. Do you even want Jesus?” And that’s
where the beauty comes in. Beth introduced me to the prayer that will most
likely forever reign on my lips, “Jesus, I want to want YOU. Would You help me?
I already know I need You. But I want to want You, too.” (Pg. 95)
"Audacious" isn’t just a book for me. It’s a journey. An intrepidly
daring, adventurous, bold, marked by originality and verve kind of journey.
And to you Jesus, I want to want you.
2 comments:
I'm totally going to have to read this. Thanks for sharing Abby. You're truly such a blessing in my life.
Thank you for sharing. I love Beth Moore's books. After reading one I always keep it close as a reference. Blessings
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