Tomorrow. Yes tomorrow I will be starting a new job. I will adorn myself in heels, dress pants, button-down shirts, fancy little sweaters, and do my hair up like a real professional. You know the look. Hair blown straight, brushed smoothly back from the face, fastened in place with a tight elastic band I will carry around my coffee tumbler feeling like a real working girl. I may even wear my glasses. I will be sitting at a desk in front of a computer, answering the phone with my most pleasant and "have a lovely day" kind of tone.
Tomorrow. Yes tomorrow I will be a big, fat FRAUD. Though I may be clicking around an office in heels and fancy pants, I will be longing for my jeans, sweaters, and new Ugg boots. Though I may be carrying my fancy Starbucks coffee tumbler, inside there will be decaf tea. Though I may be sitting at a desk answering the phone with a pleasant "have a lovely day" kind of tone, I will be longing to be where I belong. Home.
Tomorrow. Yes tomorrow I will walk through those office doors feeling that I do not belong. Though I will be completing the tasks I am assigned, I will know inside that it is not who I am. One thing I do know is this. God has placed me in a specific office with very specific people. With all my heart I desire to shine the love of God into that work environment. I desire to be a light in a dark place. I desire to reach out. I want to smile because my heart is freed by the love of God.
Tomorrow. Yes tomorrow I am EXCITED to meet new people, hopefully make new friends, and most importantly share the love of God! I haven't had many opportunities since being a stay-at-home-wife to get out into the community and love! Now is my chance. Though I'm afraid, though I'm nervous, though I'm scared because I have no blessed clue how to work the job I've been hired to do, I am on a mission.
Tomorrow. Yes tomorrow, God will be my courage, He will be my guide, and I pray He will use me. If even for one week. That's right. I'm working for 1 week. I guess I can handle it. ;) Come next Sunday afternoon, my one week career will be behind me and I can go on living my glorious, adored, best job in the world, stay-at-home life!
Tomorrow. Yes tomorrow, would you pray for me? I am going to check in during this venture as the week progresses.
My life as a fraud. Take one.
4 comments:
Girl, I will be praying! I hope its a great week for you to meet some new people. You have so much joy and love to give; I know your co-workers will be blessed. But I know the feeling, home is where you belong and it will surely make you appreciate being there even more!
Abs, you are not a fraud. you haven't compromised your calling to be a wife and home-maker. you will be absolutely fantastic, and will leave them wishing they had a dozen employees like you.
I hope you enjoy your week. I am sure that you will, because you love people. And you are not a fraud if that is where God has called you for this week. To be at home this week would be to be a fraud. :)
good point Gretchen!
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